I SET MY FRIENDS ON FIRE

gong xi fa cai

2009-01-25T14:40:00.000+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI!

cant be saved

2009-01-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

all the pain and fears,
a dream brought back to home
we send our sunken ships to a shallow grave

state of shock

2008-11-06T20:38:00.001+08:00

so far from where we started,
so far from what we wanted

oeti

2008-10-01T00:26:00.002+08:00

long time since i last updated
so ya, here i am, back again.
i passed out from bmtc sch 2 successfully
had a fun 2 weeks break
and now im a regular coporal in Ayer Rajah Camp,
8am-5pm, 5 days/week
taking a course related with electronics and communications
BUT
im not supposed to blog much about my army stuff
so all im going to say is
i love my job :)

:)

2008-07-07T01:42:00.003+08:00

well, its been quite some time since i last updated
lots of things happened
i can say that im living the good life now,
neither working nor studying
spend my time drinking, drinking and more drinking
but the good life's gonna end soon, this friday :(

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
is to hold her when I'm not around,
when I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her, and now I wish I had stayed
Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again

brand new

2008-07-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

the quiet things that no one knows

slack

2008-06-16T01:35:00.003+08:00

and so, im unemployed now.
was supposed to work till 30th june
but i figured that i need to give myself a longer break

the 3 months plus in sgh was a great learning experience.
even though the workload was abit too much for me to handle,
and almost everyone thinks im under-paid,
i enjoyed the time spent there.
at least the heavy workload makes time pass alot faster

so now its goodbye sgh
and very soon, hello tekong

scv

2008-06-10T15:22:00.000+08:00

WOOOOOO,
CABLE TV :D

mohawk

2008-06-08T16:10:00.001+08:00

IM MOHAWK-ED
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

WEEE

2008-06-08T01:20:00.003+08:00

like what others mentioned, we're officially

GRADUANTS OF NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC SCHOOL OF BUSINESS & ACCOUNTANCY 2008

then, MOSSSSSS

quite a number of meetups with the tt23 bastards
shopping with levin and nef,
midnight narnia with nef and alvin,
ride in levin's celica to T3 for supper

not bad huh,
time quite well spent for someone who's working 8.30 to 5.30, 5.5 days/wk
:D

always

2008-05-19T02:46:00.002+08:00

We were as one for a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting that you would always be mine
Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
because I know in my heart,
Our love will never die, no
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
You'll always be my baby
Time can't erase a feeling this strong

2008-05-13T23:05:00.002+08:00

Goodbye old friend
i'll move on
You call it fate, I call it karma
We had our time,
it was fun while it lasted
I'll look back with honor, and no regrets
These memories will never leave me
life goes on

I don't know how it got so painful

scars

2008-05-13T22:40:00.003+08:00

i tear my heart open, i sew myself shut
kill me, i wish im dead

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh
FFUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

aiyooooooooo

2008-05-12T13:48:00.003+08:00

i did not know how i did it,

the amount of courage it took me to keep myself calm

to have that conversation with you as if nothing had happened

but when the conversation ended,

everything comes back

it was torturous,

i almost went crazy

分开也是另一种明白

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开

2008-05-11T02:01:00.002+08:00

leona lewis - better in time

It's been the longest winter without you 
I didn't know where to turn to 
See somehow I cant forget you 
After all that we've been through 

go in, come in 
thought i heard a knock 
who's there? no one 
thinking that i deserved it 
now i realize that i really didn't know 
you didn't notice, you mean everything 
quickly im learning, to love again 
all i know is, imma be ok 

thought i couldnt live without you 
its gonna hurt when it heals to 
it'll all get better in time 
even though i really love you 
im gonna smile cause i deserve to 
it'll all get better in time 

how could i turn on the tv 
without something there to remind me 
was it all that easy 
to just put aside your feelings 

if im dreaming 
dont wanna let, hurt my feelings 

but thats the path, i believe in 
and i know that, time will heal it 
you didnt notice, you mean everything 
quickly im learning, to love again 
all i know is, imma be ok 

thought i couldnt live without you 
its gonna hurt when it heals to 
it'll all get better in time 
even though i really love you 
im gonna smile cause i deserve to 
it'll all get better in time 

since theres no more you and me 
its time i let you go so i can be free 
and live my life how it should be 
no matter how hard it is, i'll be fine without you 
yes i will 

thought i couldnt live without you 
its gonna hurt when it heals to 
it'll all get better in time 
even though i really love you
im gonna smile cause i deserve to
it'll all get better in time

2008-05-10T21:18:00.003+08:00

I'm staring at a broken door 
There's nothing left here anymore 
My room is cold, it's making me insane 
I've been waiting here so long 
But now the moment seems to come 
I see the dark clouds coming up again 
Running through the monsoon 
Beyond the world 
Till the end of time 
Where the rain won't hurt 
Fighting the storm 
Into the blue 
And when I lose myself I'll think of you

Take the night and darken everything around me
And listen closely, I'm lost without you.
I call your name every day when I feel so helpless.
I'm falling down
But I'll rise above this
i'll mend myself before it gets me

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2008-05-10T21:04:00.005+08:00

i was injured
and when the sky came crashing down,
i closed my eyes,
thinking i was going to die
but when i re-opened my eyes,
i was still alive
i looked behind
i saw my brothers holding the sky up for me
preventing it to crash on me

thanks people

This walk can get lonely, 
I lose myself inside my head 
So i bottled and shelved all my regrets,  
i'll get over it 
Sad, strong, safe and sober 
i'll move forward 
And know where i went wrong

new colleague

2008-05-07T21:52:00.001+08:00

my new colleague,

jackson ang qixiang

nsssss

2008-05-02T12:51:00.002+08:00

wednesday, 31/04/2008

worked till 5.30

met nef, kevin and 2 of nef's colleague for ktv after work

dinner at heeren 8+

went to nef's place to wait for alvin to change

on the way, dad called,

he received a letter from cmpb,

IM GOING TEKONG ON 11TH JULY 2008, 9.3OAM, SCH 2!!!!!

coincidentally, its exactly the same as kevin, nef, jason, joseph(bowen), junhao(bowen) and jackson(bowen) :D

MOS at 11+

like what nef said, MUDSLIDE!

reached home at ard 4+

thursday, 01/05/2008

woke up at 5pm

bball till 8

met nef, kevin and weiling for iron man

home at 2am

now, friday, 02/05/2008

stoning in my office,

thinking whether i should continue with my work

stone till 5.30 after i post this

breakfast

2008-04-28T22:14:00.004+08:00

for those who are wondering how i report for work EARLY
(i've been an early bird for 2 months already!)

wake up at 6.30
bathe
meet terry at coffeeshop at 7
eat breakfast
7.40, wait for bus
7.50+, reach hougang interchange
8.25 reach sgh

quite impressive for someone who almost got debarred because he cant wake up for sch on time huh.
hah :)

rise above this

2008-04-27T22:47:00.003+08:00

dude, i know you'll read my blog.
its not easy, we know
but i know you'll rise above this
all the 23 bastards are behind you :)

owned

2008-04-27T00:12:00.003+08:00

definition of 'OWN-ED' :

getting shitfaced even before you enter a club

:)

moooo

2008-04-22T23:11:00.004+08:00

having a mooooo-dy day? haha

SOOOOOoooo,
im halfway through this book called
'secrets of internet millionaires' by stuart tan,
a singaporean who earns tens of thousands every week.
i would call it a guide more than a book as it teaches you how to use the internet to earn money,
lots of money.
includes real life case studies,opinions from other experts and stuffs.
im seriously considering setting up an e-commerce website
BECAUSE, after reading the book, i realised that the capital needed to set up an e-commerce website is only US$8,
and i've already got a business plan drawn out
which 90% of the people i surveyed thinks its feasible
so why not (if i got the time and commitment needed to carry on :D)

raise some hell

2008-04-22T23:02:00.003+08:00

humanity is won by continuing to play in face of defeat

aww

2008-04-21T22:50:00.002+08:00

awww, wtf.
i found this under the hardcore metal music category

hangover

2008-04-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

hangover sucks

welcome back

2008-04-20T16:50:00.001+08:00

welcome back lappie :)

SGH

2008-04-17T15:06:00.002+08:00

working at sgh makes me feel useful and that i have an important role to play in my dept. time pass real fast down here due to the deadlines i have to meet and the busy & packed schedule i have everyday.

however, for the difficulty and amount of work i do, i feel that i should be paid more. ha :)

SO IM GOING TO SPEND LESSER TIME FOCUSING ON DEADLINES, RECEIVING STOCKS, EXCEL SPREADSHEETS, GOODS RECEIPT IN SAP, PROGRAMMING, SENDING STOCKS, NEW ITEM LISTS, PROMOTION LISTS, DRUG LABELS, NON-DRUG LABELS

AND FOCUS MORE ON BLOGGING DURING MY WORKING HOURS :D

WOOOOOHOOOOO

hayley williams

2008-04-05T14:45:00.009+08:00

Paramore's lead singer.

HAYLEY WILLIAMS
HAWT!

the acoustic version

psalm 129?

2008-04-01T13:40:00.003+08:00

PSALM 129?

A priest was driving along & saw a nun on the side of the road.

He stopped & offered her a lift which she accepted.

She got in & crossed her legs, forcing her gown to open & reveal her lovely leg. The priest had a look & nearly had an accident.

After controlling the car, he stealthfully slid his hand up her leg.

The nun looked at him & immediately said, "Father, remember psalm 129?"

The priest was flustered & apologized profusely.

He forced himself to remove his hand.

However, he was unable to remove his eyes from her leg.

Further on while changing gear, he let his hand slide up her leg again. The nun once again said, "Father, remember psalm 129?"

Once again the priest apologized, "Sorry sister, but the flesh is weak."

Arriving at the convent, the nun got out, gave him a meaningful glance & went on her way.

On the priest's arrival at the church, the priest rushed to retrieve a bible and looked up psalm 129. It said,"Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory"

auctions

2008-04-01T10:05:00.002+08:00

Wife: Hubby, i dreamt there was an auction selling di*ks during my slp last night.

those thick and big ones are going for $100 each

and those big, long and thick ones are going for $200 each.

Hubby: What about those like mine?

Wife: They were given as door gifts

Hubby: Coincidentally, i dreamt there was an auction selling v*ginas

those clean shaven ones are going for $1000 each

and those tight young ones are going for $2000

Wife: What about mine?

Hubby: Thats where they held the auction.

secondhand serenade

2008-03-25T23:26:00.001+08:00

:(
why is it over

no loot, no booze, no fun

2008-03-22T16:31:00.008+08:00

something that finally brought me a lil smile
no loot, no booze, no fun

perfect

2008-03-22T16:18:00.003+08:00

i try not to think about the pain I feel inside,
all the days you spent with me,
now seem so far away
and it feels like you don't care anymore

i can't pretend that I'm alright
this is incredibly torturous,
tell me what to do please

AHHHHHHHHH

2008-03-22T16:09:00.000+08:00

fuck this
WHY!?

no air

2008-03-22T11:30:00.005+08:00

i'm here alone didn't wanna leave

my heart won't move it's incomplete

wish there was a way that I could make you understand

but how do you expect me, to live alone with just me

cause my world revolves around you,it's so hard for me to breathe

tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

can't live can't breathe with no air

it's how I feel whenever you aint there

there's no air

got me out here in the water so deep

tell me how you gonna breathe without me

if you aint here I just can't breathe

there's no air

emoooo

2008-02-19T17:16:00.001+08:00

belna's an emo kid

有多少爱能重来?

多少人愿意等待?

失去之后才明白

期待原来是一种伤害

深爱的人一离开

忽略你给我的爱

现在我只想

回到最初的时候

不愿让你再泪流

寂寞之后

只有你会陪着我

现在我只想

回到最初的时候

我知道你还爱着我

亲爱的你

请你握紧我的手

请你看看我

请看需要你的我

一切重头

只要你回头

2008-02-19T17:09:00.003+08:00

静静地陪你走了好远好远

连眼睛红了都没有发现

听着你说你现在的改变

看着我依然最爱你的笑脸

想起我们有过的从前

泪水就一点一点开始蔓延

我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍

我吻过你的脸

你双手曾在我的双肩

感觉有那么甜我那么依恋

每当我闭上眼

我总是可以看见

失信的诺言全部都会实现

我吻过你的脸

你已经不在我的身边

虽然你不在我的身边

我还是祝福你过得好一点

断开的感情线

我不要做断点

只想在睡前再听见你的

蜜语甜言

let me out of this misery

best of you

2008-02-17T17:38:00.002+08:00

all the pain in this world won’t stop us now
for we have each other
all the hate in this world can’t tear us apart
this love is forever

i've got another confession to make, i'm your fool
is someone getting the best of you?

the spill canvas

2008-02-17T17:17:00.001+08:00

in my daydreams, in my sleep,
infatuation turning into disease.
you could cure me, see all you have to do now is please try.
give it your best shot and try.
all I'm asking for is love,
but you never seem to have enough.

almost easy

2008-02-15T19:02:00.001+08:00

Now that I’ve lost you it kills me to say

I try to hold on as you slowly slip away

I’m losing the fight, I'd treated you so wrong

Now let me make it right

water

2008-02-14T23:40:00.001+08:00

you don't miss the water till the well runs dry

!@#

2008-02-14T01:22:00.002+08:00

!@!%#$^*(%#^$#!

EDISON IS MY IDOL!

dieee

2008-01-21T01:58:00.000+08:00

FYP 4TH AUDIT

FINAL PRESENTATION

WOOOOOOO
DIEEEEEE!

another one for 'hey you'

you are so fat that when you went to climb mt everest,

people thought that you were the mountain

:)

2008-01-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

the shooting star that destroyed us all

ct no more

2007-12-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

yay!

2 weeks holidays after 4 common test papers
BUT,
i'm prepared for retest
:D

crumpled

2007-11-26T00:31:00.000+08:00

me against the world

back

2007-11-16T10:32:00.000+08:00

im back from korea!

sch sch sch

2007-11-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

the same problem still exists,
i can't wake up early :(

im going korea

2007-10-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

나는 가는 한국이다 !

it says " I'M GOING KOREA! "

predator

2007-10-23T10:26:00.000+08:00

im in love with the predator

sound the alarm

2007-10-16T02:34:00.000+08:00

why am i still suffocating?
constantly devastated just to stay alive
i miss the old days we murdered
they're so far gone, out of reach

WOW

2007-10-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

we could use that money to pay for Suzuki swift in full cash,
but i know you ain't gonna do it.
haha

almost easy

2007-10-10T01:13:00.000+08:00

come back again, its almost easy

:)

2007-10-03T03:27:00.000+08:00

like what kevin said,
we will soon be PC DISCONNECTED

PC CONNECT

2007-09-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

long long time since i last updated this space
been busy with PC CONNECT
its the 4th week of attachment
3 more weeks to go before school starts

donuts and sushi
we'll start from scratch

BALI HSE !!

2007-08-18T01:28:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, we went back to bali hse

beer, beer and more beer
6 barrels
great great time
AND NOW YOU GUYS KNOW HOW STRONG BELNA IS WHEN THERE IS ONLY BEER
well, i can say beer's my forte, haha
thats not what ppl will generally reply when others ask you
"hey, what's your forte?"

and this is the worst indian drinker i ever saw. HAHA

of cos, we need to pay respects to our fellow bestfriend, BEER!

times when the photographer could not even remember himself taking the picture. RIGHT NEF?

TOO STRONG

2007-08-06T01:09:00.001+08:00

i never knew what MADNESS was until i met these guys
for all the crazy drunk nights,
unbreakable brotherhood
and friendship,
i salute you guys
:)

I NEEDED SOMEWHERE TO HANG MY HEAD

2007-07-22T01:51:00.000+08:00

I've got another confession to make,
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break, holding you
Were you born to resist, or be abused?
Has someone taken your faith?
The pain you feel?
The life, the love you died to hear?
The hope that stops the broken hearts?
Your trust?
Is someone getting the best of you?

DEAR JACKSON

2007-07-19T01:23:00.000+08:00

i know the pressure you are going through,
the bitches you are facing currently,
your colourblind-ness,
your short short tongue :X
you missing your class of idiots which you got to know when you came to poly,
the number of tutors we screw,
the number of lecturers who chased us out of lectures,
the days we spent doing projects at ang mo kio,
the number of nights we spend wasted and drunk,
peeing outside kenneth's neighbour's hse
taking care of each other when anyone is drunk,
consoling and pushing each other on when anyone is feeling down or stressed

however,
life aint so bad afterall,
so cheer up, finish your final yr project smoothly
bastards of tt23 2005 are behind you

WOOHOO

2007-07-15T15:48:00.000+08:00

AVENGED SEVENFOLD
HINDER
THE ACADEMY IS
GYM CLASS HEROES
COBRA STARSHIP
SUGAR RAY

IN SINGAPORE !!

ECD DOWN

2007-07-13T00:52:00.000+08:00

ECD test done
IBS presentation tmr,
ECD, KMS, ITLG project due 2 weeks later
good luck to us.

belna: WANNA GO?
kevin the idiot: GO WHERE?
belna: GO HONG GAN LA!!

FEZ

2007-07-11T00:40:00.000+08:00

AND SO IT WAS PUBBING WITH NEF, LALA AND HER FRIENDS LAST FRIDAY

WE HAD A GREAT TIME
:)

CALL ME SUPERMAN

2007-07-09T08:39:00.001+08:00

miraculously, i woke up at 6am on sunday
went for breakfast with james,
watched live earth
james came over at about 12
then we played dota till 5pm,
went for lunch/dinner
watched tv
went to work at 11pm
ended work at 7am, monday
and now im in front of my laptop
i cant slp cos i have driving at 10.30am and 1.05pm
if i slp, i dont know what time will i wake up
and by the time i complete both of my driving sessions,
it'll be 3pm and that means im awake for 33hours
so ya, lets hope i dont kill any pedestrians today
:D
SONG AH!

IM BACK

2007-07-06T08:04:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY TOOK TIME OUT TO UPDATE MY BLOG :)

things in school are not how it used to be
i need to catch up ALOT in school
i got the lowest for ITLG common test,
i've not been doing e-learning,
our project's quite screwed
and
friends become foes

I LOVE SCHOOL

2007-05-11T01:49:00.000+08:00

i love school. seriously
the time spent in lectures and tutorials is like free time for us to play winning eleven, mahjong games and make fun of tutors.

went for ECD lecture on wed morning, i managed to wake up because if i do not appear at canteen one before 9am, i need to treat jason and nef chicken chops. and this reminds me that nef needs to treat jason and i chicken chops. so we went for ECD lecture and i spent my time meaningfully in the lecture as we were entertained by ' something ' (i will not say what it is but nef, rihui, jason, kevin, shawn should know clearly)

then we went for ITLG tutorial and thats my 1st ITLG tutorial as i could not wake up for the previous one and the tutor was so dumb to believe that i had morning sickness

steven lim: bernard, why are you absent for the previous tutorial?
me: i got morning sickness, it occurs every few weeks.
steven lim: oh ok. i think you should go see a doctor about that

after the tutorial, we went to nef's hse. lala cooked lunch for us. so jason and i played winning 11 while waiting for lala to prepare and JASON SUCK BALLS AT WINNING 11. HAHAHA. he played against me, rihui and kenneth. guess what. he lost to all of us. he wanted to win someone so out of desperation, he played with lala and he was leading 3-0 during the 1st half. so i took over and i scored like 5 goals. so the final score was 5-3.

im so sorry jason, i made you sad. we'll play winning 11 using laptops next time. maybe you can win me. HAHAHA

lecture at 3 was cancelled so that means we need not go back to school. slacked at his hse a little while longer and i went off to work with banana. jo and samantha came down to visit us, then jo sent samantha home and came back to 7-11 again. so sweet. danny came down at about 10.30, so jo, banana, danny and me went for supper, relac awhile then banana sent jo home while danny and i went home.

i was very very very tired when i got home so i slept till like 4pm this afternoon. so i missed KMS workshop, ITLG and KMS lect. called jason when i woke up because he called me in the morning like 7593 times for dono wad. kenneth picked up the phone and he said " today public holiday ah!? "

HAHAHA.

i promise i'll be a good boy and attend IBS tutorial tmr. i'll be dead if i dont. need to submit our 10% report and im sure that the pu bor tutor will not accept any late submissions.

BETTER THAN ME

2007-05-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vEiwAR8XEA0

Can't post the video in my blog.
but its a super duper nice video and song. go watch it. :)

BETTER THAN ME

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in then I start to see
The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be
(Oh)

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
(Oh)
What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took that you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't wanna lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
(Oh)

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
(Oh)
What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm laying in is getting colder
Wish you never would have said it's over
And I can't pretend I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure.
This can't be the end
End

I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

(And I think you should know this)
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)

ARGHH!

2007-05-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

nessa booked tickets for spiderman 3 at 6.25pm today using my credit card yesterday. so i met her, we went bugis happily thinking that we secured 2 sits in the theatre. BUT when we went to collect our tickets from the box office, the pubor said there was no record that we booked the tix. WTF! she said that the transaction might be unsuccessful then she brought us to see her supervisor. the supervisor did not want to give us our tix as we could not produce the transaction number and shit. i asked him what if i need to pay for the 2 tix when my bill comes at the end of the month and he took down my particulars, said he would check with his office and would contact me soon. bloody pundeh. if my bill comes and i need to pay for the damn tix, i'll fuck shaw upside down.

%@#!)*%$^&$#%^&@$@#$!

WTF

2007-05-01T03:19:00.000+08:00

I GOT NO SCHOOL TILL FRIDAY!

EH HI

2007-04-30T00:47:00.000+08:00

EH HI, IM BACK!
so new semester, new blog. haha
people like jilian will be thinking 'this blog will be dead soon'
i don't know, i'll TRY to keep this blog alive.
got this sudden urge to blog probably because i was too bored but i forgot the username and password of my old one, so ya, might as well create a new one.

Quite alot of things happened the past few months. it'll take me like 265 years to list out all of them so i guess i'll just talk about the more important ones.

xiong ge came back from china! along with 50+ pirated dvds and some tea leaves
kenneth, kevin and jason got their driving license
banana got his motor license
junhao came back from china too!
stan got into nyp

and alot more which i could not remember.
school's been fine except the fact that i've missed quite a few lectures and forgetting to submit things online. but luckily kenneth reminded me and he even submitted it for me. thx bro

i guess this semester will be a busy one for me. projects, lessons, work and of cos, driving. dad said hes going to get me a new car when i get my license but i need to pay for the parking and fuel. guess that will be my 19th bdae present from mum and him. lets hope that he does what he said.

WOO. no school tmr and tues. long long weekends.